Why is it so hard to actually like the things you want?

I am a Christian and you all know that Christians are very much oppose to the secular world.

But I’m also an enthusiast to a lot of things. I love fashion that makes a difference. Something bold to create authenticity and stands for what is the truth. I also support quirky and carefree people, girls who are not afraid to promote body positivity and those who are not afraid to show the vulnerable side of each individual.

Pero, most of the time people from church judge me from what I stand with.

It’s because they don’t know the ‘world’ I’m living with.

Mahirap to be yourself especially if you’re with people from church. They tend to criticize the way you talk, behave and dress. \

Pero I’m not blaming them. For once, I finally found a place to heal all my scars but after I’m gone everything just go back back to the way it used to be. I want to changed – spiritually pero every time I’m with this certain circle of friends, I fall back.

Totoo pala yung, you’ll be more happier if you’re with the world. But at the end of the day, pagsisisihan mo lang kasi it was a very stupid thing that you did.

To sum it up,

Bakit ganon? You’re doing your best to be part of a community but at the same time you just can’t easily let your real self to slip kasi baka majudge ka.

It’s hard to balance spiritual life from your secular life. It’s too ironic.